Straight up honesty!!

*Reminder: this is my blog, therefore I can say what I want to say :) Be nice to this sister!*

Y'all life lately has been straight.. up.. honestly HARD! We are going through historical times globally and within our family. The love that my hubs and I have for each other, has grown through these hard times, that one has shocked me, but made me a proud woman to stand beside my man knowing we will get through this and better days are ahead! The past 3 years have been hard for our family, but the past 6 months have been the hardest! Honestly, financially, physically, my health and every other aspect of being a Mom in between has been hard, what else is left??

Let's talk about my health, I have gained some weight. Too much for me and we (the hubs and I) have not noticed anything different in my activity levels or eating habits. Meaning, I'm not eating too much and I'm not being lazy or unactive. I am a working mother of 2 rowdy boys and I normally don't sit down at night until I'm going to bed at 11 or midnight. So activity is not a problem. I went to my doctor to determine what's going on or to see what she says, maybe without my knowledge I am doing something wrong. She did tons of blood work and checked all of my levels, everything came back fine besides my insulin levels... :0 So she had me come back again and get it checked and sure enough she determined I'm insulin resistance and was diagnosed with PCOS polycyctic ovarian syndrome which is one of the most common female endocrine disorders affecting 5%-10% of women of reproductive age (12–45 years old) and one of the leading causes of infertility. No, at this time we are not trying to have children, but this is good to know! The PCOS causes me to be insulin resistance, which if not taken care of properly then I could become diabetic. It makes complete sense now, my father was diagnosed with diabetes recently and both grandparents on my father's side of the family had diabetes before death and several members of my family have it on my Dad's side of the family, so it's in my genes.

I consider this a blessing to know, I am so blessed to know what is going on with me and this is going to help me monitor my health more carefully. I am on a very strong medication called metformin which will help control my PCOS and allow my body to properly function which in return will allow me to lose this weight. My doctor said no matter if I only had 1,000 calories a day and worked out like a crazy woman, I would not lose any weight, it is the way my body is processing all of my food. So here's my goal: take this medication, hopefully it will allow my body to do the proper things, continue to do my part of eating healthy and staying active and hopefully within the next 6 months to a year, I will be ovulating (oh because right now I'm not, thanks PCOS) and maybe, just maybe God will bless me with 1 more blessing, that's all I'm asking for, it's not too much is it?!?! We will see, it's all in His timing, I have no control over my life, I have realized that, so I'm just along to enjoy this ride called LIFE!

Thanks for listening to me and if you know of anyone who has this please let me know, I would love to know of anyone having similar problems. At first I was upset but I do think this is a blessing, it is always kind of upsetting to find out something is wrong with you. I also think it's such a miracle, our bodies. A few months back we knew I wasn't ovulating, but we didn't know why not? We thought it could of been my endometriosis because I've known I've had that and with my two c-sections it's gotten worse, but little did we know it was something much more serious and my body knew it was going on so it stopped all female functions, crazy huh!!!

I will not believe the odds are against me, but I will continue to do what I can do to make sure I'm healthy and that's all I can do!!!

Y'all have a wonderful Wednesday!!!