I'm sure you all could care less... but I would like to keep this for a record for our sweet little family. So here are the details of finding out about #3 - gosh that's scary seeing the #3...WOW!
It was back to school week and in the middle of that crazy week, I remembered I was suppose to have my monthly visitor... and at that point I was 4 days late. Not like me at all! So on my lunch break I went to get a test, took it in the bathroom at work and immediately it said "pregnant". I stuffed it in my purse, FREAKED out for a minute and quietly made it back to my desk to finish the day.
In my head all that day I was thinking about our future. Here we are it's the first week of school. The first time in 7 years to have NO childcare. The night before (I kid you not) the hubs and I were discussing next year. We planned 3 trips with the kids, we had things in the house we wanted to complete and even save for a bigger house and other things we have really wanted.
So when I found out, I could not help to be excited but also so disappointed. It was so unexpected, so unplanned and so shocking to me. The month before the boys and I were out of town, during the "week" of my cycle I could of got pregnant if we tried. Plus months, years before doctors told me I would have to take clomid to get pregnant due to have PCOS, so when it just happened, it was SO shocking.
I honestly believe God sent this child to us for a reason. Of course He did, I mean He made this child and already knows everything about this child's life. It is God's timing and the more we talk and discuss it, it could not be more perfect timing for our family! Of course me being selfish and thinking of the "wants" in our lives would be hindered is just plain silly. We are still planning most of the things we discussed, we will just have a baby along with ride with us!
How I told the hubs: That afternoon at my desk, I was telling myself, I'm just not going to tell him for awhile. He is going to be just as shocked and it's going to be a little awkward I'm sure.. ha! But the more I thought about it, the more I thought well I sure don't want to sit her and think about it on my own for weeks. So I went home that night, we were discussing next year (seriously, about our trips) and I just said it, in the middle of him talking. He was SHOCKED, cried a little, hugged me and said well this is not what I was expecting, but it's going to be just fine! I left him alone for awhile, like I said it was very shocking. After a little while later he was joking around about it, which meant to me he was, in his head, ok about it.
How can you be anything but excited about it? I mean it's a new life, a blessing and something we could not be more thankful for!! It's something we both always wanted, but I think it was hard to make that decision each time to really "try" for another one. God fixed that problem for us and just allowed it to happen and be a complete surprise.
So far this pregnancy is EXACTLY like the boys. I'm very convinced it is a boy. I am fine with that, I think having 3 boys will be fun, but if you know me in real life, you know I'm praying for a healthy baby, but telling God a baby girl would be epic. It would complete my life.. ha!
That's were we are so far... the boys are excited, but then again they are boys. Most of the time they could care less. It will be more real to them when I start showing or when the child comes.
Thanks for listening. Please know we are beyond excited now and last week when it was very concerning for us as to if the baby was alive or would make it, we were both terrified and devestated. When we heard and saw that little baby and heart just a beating, it made it so much more exciting for us.
I hope y'all have a great weekend!!
HOTTY TODDY my friends!
P.S. I'm not sure if I'm going to start the weekly pregnancy updates. It's hard for me to make commitments so that scares me... ha! Plus y'all really don't care to know how much I weigh or how I'm looking because it is not going to be pretty! If I do start them, it will be a few weeks from now, maybe around 12 weeks.