I could not tell you where the past year has gone, but I do know it has gone way too fast. James Westin Clements turned 1 years old, this morning at 7:52am.
On this day, one year ago, my water broke in the middle of the night, around 2am. Contractions quickly began around 3am and we had a c-section around 7:30, which they finally pulled this peanut out at 7:52. I will never forget lying in the hospital bed, waiting a few hours for my surgery. J was able to fall back to sleep at the hospital before the surgery, I wasn't able to so I just layed there... sometimes crying because I was scared, other times my mind raced thinking of everything I should of done before he came and I worried about Will and Luke, oh how I worried about this transition. We were a family of 4 for so long, have we done something that could harm our family? Oh how wrong I was, it was the complete opposite.
Once my fabulous doctor came it all went pretty fast. Before we knew it he was here and we were instantly in love. He was just so tiny but oh so perfect!
This child is nothing short of a miracle, sent straight from Heaven. All children are but we were told we couldn't have more children. We thought if it happened, it would take lots of medication which is something I didn't want to do. When we found myself pregnant we were told at 7 weeks it was only a sack. No baby... we were devestated but my awesome doctor said to go through the weekend, then we will do another ultrasound before scheduling my DNC. On Monday, at my ultrasound we found a heartbeat. It was a miracle. Before the ultrasound a nurse asked me if I had started to bleed yet, like they all had expected this to not be a child but I kept faith. I kept very positive and never thought it would be anything but a heartbeat on that screen.
This little boy has stolen the hearts of us all, he is a perfect, beautiful, peaceful and funny. He has a special thing for his Daddy. They have a bond that will never be broken. This child has completed our family.
I give all the glory to the Lord above. He is the only one that can mend a family so perfectly. I never imagined I could love Will and Luke any more than I did before. But each time they play with Westin or each time they all are laughing together, my heart jumps out of my chest and I love them all so much more! The love between J and I has grown. Again, it is a strange feeling but we are complete. We are a family that can't be broken and we all love each other so much!
Thank you sweet James Westin Clements for bringing us all so much joy! We look forward to watching you grow up many more years ahead!!! Be the child God made you to be!
Mommy and Daddy